I wanted to find clarity in the woods, and I sure as hell got it. Only it wasn't at all what I wanted, or thought I wanted, anyway. At all. It was more like clarity in a cup. A very large cup of vanilla ice cream blended with peanut butter cups and chocolate sauce. Wait 24 to 48 hours. Repeat.
Right. In the food, not the mood. Or maybe, "in the mood for food?" You get the idea. In light of my recent roller coaster of relapse, I'd like to share what's so fulfilling about practicing an addiction...and what's so soul-sucking about it. If you've been tuning into this blog since the beginning, you've witnessed … Continue reading Being In the Food
Life happens. And life's happenings tend to get in the way of our grandest plans. We find ourselves on one track only to be pushed over onto another route, let alone another track. I had hoped for a clean, 8-week series of posts detailing my experiences with Marc David's The Slow Down Diet, but that's … Continue reading Every Week, Every Day: This is Life
I've been running so much that I haven't had a moment to sit down--let alone stand--to share my experiences here. And for the record, when I say running, I don't mean lacing on my gym shoes and jogging around the neighborhood. I mean moving from one task to the next, from one distraction to the … Continue reading Running to Stand Still
I'm uncomfortable with the concept of being powerless. I wouldn't say I'm a control freak, but I believe I'm empowered to do what I need to do as I navigate life. God or the Higher Power notwithstanding, I've got to know that at I have at least some influence over my destiny, my daily living, my next decision, etc. … Continue reading Powerlessness: A Powerful Reality
It's Valentine's week--no better time to talk about the sensuality of food. Don't worry, I won't get all "TMI" here, but I'm going to use the food/sex analogy to explain my challenge with moderation. Let's dim the lights, shall we? I talk with lots of people about their experiences with overeating and hear just as … Continue reading Let’s Talk About Desire
If you've been following my journey, you've probably noticed some ping-ponging, a behavior that's characteristic of those with weight management issues. One day I'm doing Whole30, the next day I'm not, the day after that I'm waxing philosophic about dichotomous personality and wondering what's wrong with me (I didn't post that one!). But in any quest for … Continue reading When It’s Not Just a Taste
I'm so grateful for the outpouring of support from my friends as I share my healthy lifestyle journey. I need to say this for myself, if not to clarify my intentions to whomever might be reading this, that I am not retooling my lifestyle in order to achieve a certain appearance. Sure, I care about how … Continue reading What’s This REALLY All About?
I've had a hell of a time since I last posted. I'm really making an effort to not judge myself for not following through on my Whole30 commitment ('cause, I haven't). Frankly, the journey I'm on is bigger than any 30 day initiative, and it's the big picture I'm interested in at this point. There … Continue reading All Bets Are Off
This isn't an easy post to write. I've been avoiding it, actually. For as hard as I've worked to change my behaviors and for as far as I've come, I'm incredibly frustrated by the fact that I still use food to deal with discomfort. Eating is absolutely the most satisfying thing to do, even if … Continue reading Confessions in Obstinance